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Thursday, October 22, 2009
Back in the saddle
At lunch today, while waiting for my dining companion to arrive, I finally deleted all the text messages inexplicably still in my phone from Brisket.

Progress? Or sublimation? Not really sure if I care. In any event, it feels sort of liberating.

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Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Recaps and Reassurances
So, to sum-up: My thesis is done. My woes with financial aid are sorted. Come Saturday those suckers at Rosemont will be conferring a degree upon me and you shall all have to call me "Master." The only thing slightly troubling is that as of this afternoon, I'm still showing an "incomplete" for my thesis. But as I have to go to the school tomorrow to pick up my cap and gown (!), I'll pop in on my adviser and make sure everything is in order.

I'm feeling better, by the way. Not 100%, but getting there. I'm not sure what my issues are, exactly, but having a lot of stuff to do helps me plow through them. Being busy never hurts. And maybe that's been my problem these past months: I've been busy, sure, but it's been a solitary, stationary busy instead of my usual running around like nuts busy.

I also came to the realization that I've been pretty hard on myself lately: I've been feeling bad about being mediocre and psyching myself out about how untalented I am and whatnot. I don't know what spawns this, but I basically gave myself a mindfuck. I compare and contrast myself to other photographers, or writers, or designers and sabotage my work before I even begin.

But then, good things happen: I designed a few pieces for my thesis and I really like them and feel good about them. I finally finished a zine, which is something I've wanted to do since 2005. I had an excellent photo session with Made in China, I'm so so pleased with how crisp and sharp those photos came out. And I just spent the last 2 days getting trained in Dreamweaver, and now I'm all kinds of inspired to create beautiful websites for you all*, starting with a Dalek-Hippo site for Renee.

So everything that happens will happen today. And tomorrow and the day after that, too.

*Once I, um, get a copy of the program for myself.

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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Some things
QK is now 30 years old, and hot damn.

I made this cake, as well as this one, again. Both turned out excellent, and coupled with the carrot cake that Becky made, means QK got one cake for each decade of her life.

I really, really wanted to be all kinds of crazy and drinky on Saturday night, but the start of a nasty cold/sinus infection prevented me from helping QK down that magnum of champagne the way I really wanted to. Instead, it left me grumpy and sitting on the couch.

And really, this cold/sinus thing can go fuck off already. I ended up calling out of work yesterday (Renee: shut up) mostly due to that (shut up) and the lack of sleep I received (shut up) and today I sound like a gross fog horn blowing my nose every five seconds and my lips are all chapped and weird and ew ew ew. Aside from all that, I feel generally OK though, but the whole ordeal makes me feel annoyed and decidedly unsexy. Still, Renee cooked me dinner of chicken and dumplings last night and let me lay on her couch all snotty and pathetic to watch Heroes, which OMG.

Wales is a MONTH away, as the Economist was so kind to remind me. Because I'm not STRESSING THE FUCK OUT as is.

So an update: I have begun work on the paper. Passport is hung up on a tiny hiccup that should be resolved today. Credit card is ready to purchase tickets. I'm not in the best of shape, but things are progressing. However, this news has made me bummed, as Paul Cornell was one of the people I was looking most forward to meeting. Still, it's going to be a good time regardless, and there are plenty of other cool Who people around.

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Monday, September 22, 2008
Missing in Action
As much as I am loathe to admit it -- I'm simply not ready -- it's fall. And per usual, I'm running in about 17 directions at once. Sadly, it's not for anything particularly exciting: work, school, photography, blah. Basically, it's nothing worth blogging about. However, knowing how upset some of you get when I don't post (Christopher), here's what I've been up to lately:

  • Work. Yeah, nothing too earth-shattering there. Editorial Conference is this week, but seeing as I have been relieved of my video duties, for the most part I am at my leisure this year.

  • School. I'm taking Elements of Design, which is actually turning out to be pretty rad. There's only two of us in the class, so I'm surprised that Rosemont didn't just go ahead and cancel it. But it's ended up being a good thing. Since it's just the two of us it's allowed the instructor to completely revamp the syllabus to suit our needs. And given that I've been bitching for the past two years that Rosemont needs more advanced design classes, it's so fucking nice to be getting personalized attention like this. However, class is on Saturdays. Which sucks.

  • Oh, Rosemont. While on the subject of school, there's about 15 levels of DRAMA and ISSUES going on over there. Luckily, most of it has nothing to do with me and I've managed to remain uninvolved. I do, however, have to hear about it from everyone and their Mom. So while I've had a mostly positive experience there, I am very glad that this is my final semester.

  • Oh yeah. Thesis. I couldn't find an adviser. But now I have one, so I need to get to work.

  • Panicking about Wales. Don't ask. No, don't. I told you not to as-- Fine. No, it's not done yet. No, I haven't done that either. Or that. Yes, I know. I KNOW. I AM AWARE. Please bite me.

  • Living with Gary. It's going quite well. We've begun setting up the reading room (!), hung most of the artwork (!!!), and the kitties are getting along well.

  • Bonus to living with Gary: Yesterday morning, I rolled out of bed, walked downstairs and sleepily collapsed on the couch to pet kitties. Gary wordlessly got up from his seat, walked to the kitchen, and returned with a cup of coffee for me. LOVE HIM.

  • Slowly making my way through all of Gary's awesome DVD collection. Now that we no longer have regular TV, it's allowed me to revisit some old favorites. We're currently zipping through The West Wing.

  • Obsessing over the polls. I swear to all that is good and holy, if McCain/Palin wins this thing America is DEAD to me.

  • Making my skin soft and supple. Leslie is now a Mary Kay consultant. She might as well be dealing me crystal meth. I can attest that the Microdermabrasion stuff and Satin Lips are both awesome.

  • Other things, which are not exactly prudent to blog about, but are indeed fun. Suffice to say, it's making me a happy girl, so I'm going to keep doing it.

  • No, I'm not going to elaborate. Shut up and leave me alone.

  • Taking part in a staged reading this Friday at Rosemont. I play Jill, a 20-something teacher in love with her boyfriend Chris. I haven't acted in a play since the 7th grade One Act Plays where I played "Doctor #2" in the acclaimed "Doctor, Doctor!" And there's a reason. I feel all awkward outside of the light booth.

  • Redesigning my brothers site, which I've done, but it still looks like ass and I swear if I don't get myself some hard core coding training sometime in the near future, I will EAT my FACE.

  • Trying, in vain, to get in shape for another 5K. I was actually going to do one this past Sunday, but ended up punking out. So now Stephanie is on my ass (right where I like her) to do this one in October.

  • The new season of Heroes beginning tonight! Thanks, Renee. Because I needed another sci-fi show to be obsessed about.

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Wednesday, June 04, 2008
See how I run
Last week at this time I was doing what I believe is known as, "Losing my Shit All Over the Place." I basically had ten million, frillion, septillion things to do, most with a Saturday deadline, so I was spazzing out everywhere.

I am pleased to say -- with a little help from friends -- I managed to get everything done that needed to get done. Huge, immense, incredible thanks go out to Tammi who did me the gigantic favor of taking my art to the gallery (Ok, ok, ok -- it's totally just a bar with art hanging on the walls. WHATEVER. THEY CALL THEMSELVES A GALLERY, SO I WILL TOO) on time for the drop off so that I could attend my cousin's graduation party.

Speaking of which, graduation party turned into Cousin-Palooza '08 with representation from all sides and factions of the family; it was lovely. Cousins are so awesome, and I can't tell you how much I enjoy and love all of my cousins' company. I feel lucky to be so close to them all, if not geographically then at least personally. Even more rad: I'll get to see most of them again at the end of the month when fellow cousin and Bishop (Oh, Cousin Bishop, as Carl would say) has his 25th anniversary of ordination. It's going to be fabulous.

The biggest accomplishment is that I got that fragging abstract done. I got it in right under the deadline at 11:49pm on Saturday. It was all kind of slapdash -- If you remember, I originally did paper on Hegel and Lacan, then the Doc advised me to just focus on one of the philosophers. So I chose Hegel, thinking that he would give me more to work with. I struggled all week long with this stupid abstract, really having issues with both the writing style and Hegel's philosophy (oh god, I HAAAAAATE Hegel -- he's impossibly dense and cerebral) and feeling quite discouraged. Then, at the Rosemont Reading on Friday night (which went really well, by the way, I got a good response on what I read), one of my fellow readers read a piece called, "Sarah Died From Her Lacanian Struggle" a fictional short story inspired be the Critical Theory class she and I both took, the class that spawned this paper in the first place. You guys, that story was exactly what I needed to hear. So at the eleventh hour, I changed my mind again and decided to focus solely on Lacan. So Saturday -- on the ride to my cousin's graduation -- I rewrote my abstract. I didn't run it by the Doc or anyone, I just sent it in. I don't think I did it properly, writing style-wise, but writing in a serious academic fashion is so difficult, and writing in serious academic fashion while still feeling like it was "my own" is darn near impossible. So I took a breath, trusted my gut and natural writing instincts and just did it. I have no idea if it will be accepted, but if it's not I'm OK with that. A lot of this exercise was about trying something new, putting myself out there. I did the best I could, and I am satisfied with myself. The bigger picture now is figuring out how to get myself to Ireland/the UK, because deep down, that's what this is really about. Omen-wise, this post of dorky Lacan jokes appeared on McSweeney's the same day. Which I don't take as an omen that I'll get to the conference, rather that I did the right thing writing about Lacan.

Meanwhile, summer classes continue to be crazy. My company's softball team continues to rock -- they're 6–0 right now. I may have finagled myself as a correspondent for Montgomery County Newspapers (I know. What? How did that happen? The editor for Ticket is my teacher for my summer class, and he invited me to do a few articles, that's how. Sadly, unpaid. Gotta start somewhere, I guess). Mike's girlfriend has temporarily moved in with us. I've told Gary he can move in with me come fall. (YEAH. What have I gotten myself into? This could be either incredibly bad or incredibly awesome. We'll find out which.) I've got another wedding this weekend, so it's home home home, and of course, more photos. Art show is TOMORROW NIGHT and I couldn't be more stoked. I hope to see you all there! You're coming, right? You're all invited! Come on, you know you want to drink booze with me and help me pretend I'm a famous artist!

It's a crazy, wild time I'm having this summer. I kind of like it.

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Tuesday, April 15, 2008
While on the subject of apples...
Tomorrow I'm headed to the Big one! As in New York. Tell me if this doesn't sound awesome:

  • Taking the train to the city

  • Meeting up with Jose!

  • Eating lunch at a fab Mexican Restaurant where hopefully there will be margaritas the size of my head.

  • Stalking Jon Stewart Going to a taping of The Daily Show

  • Taking as many photos as my camera can take and probably annoying the crap out of Kelly, Christopher and Jose in the process.


I know right? I'm stoked.

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Monday, April 14, 2008
Owned
Friday night, Rosemont, @ the MFA Reading:

Liz: How's work?

Me: It's good, I guess. A little boring lately, actually.

Liz: Well, that should give you plenty of time to write.

Me: [blushes]

Liz: Right?

Me: Yeah. [*stares sheepishly at shoes*]

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Monday, February 18, 2008
Read Books, They're Good for Your Mind
Or, rather, Donate Books, It's Good For Your Soul.

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Every year the Dewey Donation System puts together book drive for a school or library in need. It's one of my favorite charities and I try to make a point in donating, even if it's just one children's book. It's done some amazing things in the past -- donating books libraries decimated by hurricane Katrina and schools demolished by the Tsunami in 2005. Most of the time the libraries being donated to don't even know they've been chosen until the drive is over -- and then they get a lovely surprise.

So why don't you take a moment to put some warm fuzzies in your cold pricklies by donating a book or two?

Thanks! You look pretty.

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Tuesday, February 05, 2008
Carne Vale
Somehow I totally skipped out on the fact that today is Shrove Tuesday. Or Fat Tuesday. Or Fausnacht Day. Whatever you want to call it.

Despite being a Catholic Pagan Unitarian Peace Mission Quaker who no longer celebrates most Catholic traditions, I really like the Ash Wednesday. Of course, it's not for the right reasons, but hey, we all have our vernaculars.

I like Ash Wednesday for that moment when ashes are spread across my forehead and I am told, "Remember you are from dust, and unto dust you shall return." Which, like I said, is not the intention. You're supposed to feel repentant, guilty for being a sinner. But I've never really felt that penance like I'm supposed to, that fear of being judged. It's sort of macabre, but it reminds me that time is fleeting and that I should use the time I'm given full. Embrace life and live it to the fullest. The only thing I've ever felt sorry for is not living up to my potential and being wasteful. That's what I get out of it, and that's why I keep going back year after year to get my ashes. It's one of the few Catholic rituals that I feel something for, a sense of connection to, even if it's the wrong connection.

Anyway. Jasmine brought a bunch of fausnachts into the office today and I was overcome with glee. I haven't had fausnachts on Shrove Tuesday since I was in high school. Like, real, honest-to-goodness fausnachts. So after stuffing my face with one, I dashed to my computer and franticly emailed my mom to ask her to freeze some for me from St. Gertrude's. Or whatever they call that church now.

Starting tomorrow, I will be abstaining from all sweet treats for at least 40 days. I will also be making an effort to go to the gym again. Because in part with that "living life to the fullest" and "living up to my potential" means a little self improvement. I may also, depending on how hard core I am feeling tomorrow, give up red meat (which I don't eat that much of anyway) or meat altogether. I haven't decided.

In any event, I've been invited to a Fry Party this evening at Haven and Mike's so that might have to happen, for one more day of hedonistic face stuffing before all the work begins.

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Monday, January 21, 2008
Today's forcast: Kidnappings and Firings
9:45am, Google Chat between me and Stephanie.

S: What are you doing today?

K: Working.

S: Working is rubbish. I'm taking a half-day and you should too.

K: But I'm taking next Monday off. And we're having a Wall of Fame today. So I would like to be here for that. And I should work on charts.

S: Aww, look at you. You're such a good company girl.

K: Thanks.

S: That wasn't a compliment.

---

2:00pm, Stephanie calls me.


"Are you ready skivv off work yet?"

"Well, I have to do an FMA chart."

"For fuck's sake!"

"I'll tell you what. I need to pick up my car at the garage. You can take me to the garage if you like."

"Can I take you to the garage and then keep you?"

"I'm...Stephanie, I'm at work. I can't just up and leave."

"Are you done with all your deadlines for the day? Miss J is cool. She'll let you leave."

"That's not the point."

"Finish your fragging chart. I'm coming to take you to the garage."

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2:15pm, Stephanie arrives at the office.

"Come on, I'm kidnapping you."

"OK, hang on. Miss J, Stephanie is taking me to pick up my car...and then she, uh, she wants me to...she might... keep me. Is there anything you need be--"

"LET'S GO!"

---

2:17pm, in Stephanie's car.

"Do you mind if I run a quick errand before I take you to your car?"

"No.."

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2:36, Phoenixville.

"Stephanie?"

"Yeah?"

"We're at a bowling alley."

"Yes!"

"I thought you had to run an errand."

"I do!"

"...And...it's at a bowling alley?"

"Yes! It was in my list of errands to bowl two games with you and Henry."

"I'm supposed to be at work! I can't just go bowling."

"Why not?"

"It's taking advantage of Miss J's kindness. What if something goes wrong and they need me and I'm not there. I'll get fired!"

"I kidnapped you. You don't have a car. You have no choice. Let Miss J fire me."

"..."

"Are you going to sit in the car and wait for me and Henry while we play? Or are you coming in with us?"

"Coming in. I guess I can make up the time."

"For fuck's sake. Get your ass in the alley. I'm about to house you."

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Friday, December 21, 2007
You don't even KNOW
Entries I've started, but been unable to finish

  1. A story about how a jackhole of a mechanic tried to convince me it would cost $800 to repair my busted car, when in fact it only cost $121 when I took it to my regular mechanic. So to everyone: I would like to hereby endorse RRR Automotive in Malvern for being awesome and not scamming me out of $700 right before Christmas. And also don't go to the Great Valley Sunoco. Because they will SWINDLE your ass.

  2. How it is seemingly impossible for me to convince Jim, Stephanie, and Renee W. that I am capable of any of the following: attitude (but I did the finger wave and head bob!), anger, meanness, or lying. True, by the end of the dinner I had promised to make Jim cookies and revealed embarrassing stories about pudding wrestling, but STILL. I really really promise that I can be just as cold, cynical and black-hearted as the rest of the population. It's just that when I'm with Jim, Stephanie, and Renee W. I don't want to be. So they only see my good side.

  3. How Stephanie and I are made of WIN. We had ourselves a Whosmas this week and presented each other with rocking Whovian gifts. I am now in possession of a rocking WhoScarf as well as action figures that I have delighted in arranging in slashy poses. Because I am twelve. Stephanie and I are seriously considering catching a flight to London on Tuesday so we can watch Voyage of the Damned. Because that's going to take FOREVER to get to the States for reasons that I can't even comprehend, and we need to invest in learning how BitTorrent works like right now so we can get our Whofix.

  4. How I've been a bit of a movie fiend lately. Recently viewed: No Country for Old Men, The Golden Compass, and Sweeney Todd. All good, all worth the price of admission. The Golden Compass you should read before you see though, as it will enhance your viewing considerably. If you want to develop bizarre crushes for psycho killers (and you will, oh yes, you will) than No Country for Old Men is for you. And Sweeney Todd is just gloriously bloody and ridiculous and disgusting, and fantastic because it's a musical about killing people and grinding them into food. And also: Cameo by Anthony Head. Next on the list is Juno and Atonement. Looking forward to 2008 and The Dark Knight since Heath Ledger as the Joker looks nothing short of deranged and I say yes.

  5. How our Christmas tree (which Mike totally picked out, I blame him entirely) attacked me and Kelly while we were trying to put lights on it. The thing fell over on us no less than three times, leading to Kelly and I covered in sap and eventually lying under the tree trying hack off an errant branch with a serrated bread knife.


I foolishly thought that I would be able to relax this week since school is over, but instead it's been all OmigodItsChristmas panic!

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Tuesday, June 26, 2007
No time! No time!
Hey, hi, howareya?

Hey, hi, kindabusythanks.

Let's cover some of the basics super real quick:

Wedding was fabu. I looked super cute, thanks for all your help with the dress. Photos coming later this week when I have time to sort through and edit the 200+ pictures I took. But before I do that I have to sort through and edit the 200+ photos I took for Slaymo.

And I have stories about, oh, everything. But as usual, I'm flying around like crazy. Sit tight, yeah?

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Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Bookshelf woes
I am in desperate need of a bookshelf. I already have one, of course, two actually, now that I think about it, but they are on the full side. And considering I CAN'T STOP buying books, this has become a real problem.

I've been keeping a wary eye as I make my yard sale rounds and Miss J has kindly offered me an old bookshelf of hers. But this has brought up another problem: I have no room for a bookshelf in my room. The ceiling in my room slopes in at various angles, number one, limiting my spots for pieces of furniture. Number two, most of my furniture is already up against the available wall space, leaving the center of my room free for movement and activity (or more often, the piling of dirty clothes).

I should probably break down and just buy a bookcase at IKEA or something, because come fall who knows if I'll still be in this apartment or what. But then, I saw this, and I have totally fallen in love with idea of building myself a bookcase like this.

Needed: Someone with a table saw and miter saw that will cut the wood for me. Also needed: someone who will lend me their nail gun. The rest I will do myself.

EDIT: I heart Instructables. Now I want to make this too, just for kicks.

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Monday, May 21, 2007
Weekend Recap: Addiction, Avocadoes, Gooooal!, Lonliness
People, this is serious. I have a problem. I can't stop buying cameras. Somehow I managed to acquire 4 cameras in less than 48 hours. It started when I bought the pop-art camera and the DIY Pinhole camera because I had been wanting them for a little while. Then talking about it with my friend, she told me her Mom had a 1950's Brownie Bullet, and would I want it? Damn skippy. I even found a place online that still sells 127 film (albeit for $6.99 a roll plus shipping, yikes). Score! Saturday brought a flurry of flea markets and yard sales where I found a sweet little Vivitar for only $3! And just this very second, while looking online for a photo of that Vivitar, I discovered that camera is worth about $89. I think I got myself a bargain. And you all know that to me thriftiness and bargains are like obtaining Nirvana.

Friday night was a happy hour that initially I had been looking forward to, but once there found myself feeling less than enthusiastic. I ended up feeling sort of detached and out of place, something that was not helped when I coworker who I don't get to see much sat down next to me and started in on the whole "So why are you not dating anyone" line of questioning. Two drinks and an appetizer later I was ready to book out of there. I settled in at home on the couch with Dill and a book, cozy and content until I realized that the couch, Dill, and the book are all very probable reasons for why I'm not dating anyone.

Saturday morning was filled with the aforementioned thrifty goodness. After several good finds (I also got books, shocker, and an interesting piece of original art) I headed to Whole Foods to buy the necessary ingredients for guacamole (second only to perhaps Maryanne's, my guacamole is AWESOME, yo), only none of the avocadoes were ripe. Seriously, none of them. I must have stood there for 20 minutes and felt up all the avocadoes. Then I remembered Rachel Ray saying something about forcing avocadoes to ripen if you keep them in a paper bag for a couple of hours. So I bought everything anyway and tried my hand at it. I am here to tell you that Rachel Ray LIES. Or else I am smoking crack and was imagining her telling me that. The avocadoes remained as hard as rocks, and no matter how I tried — microwaving them, whatever — they remained that way, making for the worst guacamole I’ve ever made in my life. I headed over to Stephanie’s then, damned guacamole and all, for the FA Cup finals where I learned that Manchester United is like the New York Yankees of football. No matter, Chelsea won, in overtime and even though Yahoo! Sports effed up the timing for us, we managed to celebrate the win anyway by downing Heinekens and a viewing of the British Acting Mafia in Love, Actually.

After all the British fun and goodness I raced home to change and headed off to an Anniversary party where imbibing two chocolate martinis, two glasses of chardonnay, and a glass of champagne reminded me that alcohol is a depressant and despite an awesome darts victory against Christopher earlier in the evening, left me feeling sad. Once at home I tried to rectify my mood with some cherries and a couple episodes of My Name is Earl, but nothing doing. I glumly headed off to bed, where I lay listening to moody music on my iPod until Fate stepped in. Fate had Becky call me at 1:30am on her way home from bar hopping, and while we didn’t talk about my depressing mood (I doubt I could have put a finger on what was bothering me anyway) just hearing her voice and chatting helped me immensely. After hanging up, I switched my iPod over to Monty Python and drifted off to sleep feeling much lighter.

Sunday I woke up early and grumpy. Of all the things that I could do on Sunday, the last thing I felt like doing was heading to a bar. But deep down I did want to go to the bar because I know that my time with my cousin Sean is limited (in the fall he’s headed to the University of Limerick to study Irish music). I dragged myself to Kildare’s where a cup or two of coffee and the brunch buffet dragged my emotional funk away and left me feeling happy and fond of everyone around me. A few Strongbows helped that feeling even more. Sean played excellent and to a good crowd since Cabrini’s graduation was that morning and everyone was coming in for post grad lunches and celebrations. Emma, who usually plays the flute with Sean and Caitlin wasn’t able to come and so a very attractive fiddle/banjo player filled in for her. I think I said all about two words to him, mostly because I was intimidated by him. He was my age, completely self taught, and phenomenal on both instruments. I can’t imagine being that good at anything I’ve taught myself.

It was later than I thought by the time we were done at Kildare’s so I headed home where I crashed out on the couch for a late nap and then a viewing of Match Point, which again somehow managed to depress the shit out of me.

I think I’ve decided that I’m manic-depressive.

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Friday, May 04, 2007
Mahlvelous
All the culture I'm about to drop on you with this entry has just been made null by the horrible pun in my title.

Last night I attended a sold-out performance of Mahler's Second Symphony ("Resurrection") at the Philadelphia Orchestra.

Now, I'm generally pretty stupid about music. Out of everyone in my family, I'm the only one who doesn't play an instrument. I look at my cousin, my aunts and uncles, even my dad, all of whom are so talented and I wonder, "Am I adopted?" The gene skipped right over me, for real. There's just this defect in my brain wiring or something. I can't read music. I don't understand the way measures and notes, tones and sounds, scales and keys come together. My aunt argues with me, telling me that I just haven't been taught properly, likening it to a light switch that hasn't been flipped yet. "One day, it will all come together for you, it will click and you'll understand it all." I don't think so. I've been in the dark long enough to know that the circuit is broken. That's okay. I don't need to understand to enjoy.

Whenever I'm invited to the orchestra, I try to study up on the piece a little bit —— if nothing else to help me understand context since I don't get the technicality. This was such a last minute invite that I really didn't have a chance. Going into it, all I knew was what the Doc told me when he invited me, "You won't want to miss this one. It's a doozy."

He wasn't wrong.

You don't need to be technically proficient or musically apt to know that there are moments of pure unadulterated genius in this. Being such a musical tard, I don't know precisely how to word it, but like, how did he think up this stuff? I mean, the IV and V movements? He busts it all out. Chorus, organ, a collection of musicians offstage. It's overwhelming. It was said that at its premiere performance in Berlin it caused grown men to openly weep. And while I didn't see anyone in the audience crying, you could feel the collective tension and release of your fellow audience members as the piece progressed. There were points where I was holding my breath, and when I realized I was holding my breath I didn't want to exhale because in some silly part of my brain I was worried the sound of my breath escaping from my lungs would be disruptive to the piece. I am not kidding about this.

The piece is a dramatic, joyful, recognition of everlasting life. There are obvious religious overtones and messages ("I am from God, and I will return to God"), but interesting enough, during the entire performance I was thinking more of phoenixes and starting over than being welcomed into heaven. Regardless of what you believe or what you think of when you hear it being performed, the music is beautiful.

One of my favorite parts of going to the orchestra is watching the musicians perform. Heck it's the reason you go see any live performance, instead of just sitting at home with your CDs. But watching the orchestra perform is especially fascinating to me. Watching them elicit these sounds from their instruments just captivates me. The way they tilt their heads, hold their hands, curve their fingers, arch their backs, lean in time. It was clear last night from watching them that they were excited to perform this. The score is filled with all kinds of wowee musical stuff that my ignorance won't let me describe properly. Boisterous crescendos, arresting codas, atypical use of instruments. This is their recess.

Upon completion the audience was on its feet applauding. No less than four standing ovations later, I turned to the Doc and jokingly said, "Eh, it was OK. Aren't we missing ER right now?" He laughed at me and mouthed, "Not bad for six bucks," referring to our student understudy tickets that allowed us entrance into the concert hall and to sit in the seats of season ticket holders who didn't attend.

The performance runs until Sunday. Amazingly enough, there are still tickets available for Sunday's performance. This will not last. Even though we were (barely) able to make use of the understudy tickets, I've never seen Verizon Hall so packed. If you have the time, I would recommend snapping yourself up a pair. It's worth it, trust me.

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Random Splatters
I had one of those dreams last night, the kind where all your frustrations manifest in a completely logical way, but when you wake up, you go on feeling the emotions in a totally illogical way. Last night's dream involved a coworker I don't particularly like. He's fine, I guess, just in love with the sound of his own voice, constantly talking over people and speaking at a decibel one would expect if the other party was in North Dakota. So he's annoying, is the point I'm getting at, and he's in middle management and just...one of those guys. But I rarely have cause to interact with him, so he's just peripherally obnoxious. But last night, in my dream? I was helping out a coworker on a project for him and he was acting like such a prick. Calling us "dumb broads" and bitching about how our time management sucked when all we were doing was waiting for the printer to process our job, GOD, and I lost it on him. I completely called him out on his bullshit in a forceful and professional manner but still managed to hand him his ass on a plate. Basically I asserted myself in a fashion that I rarely do in real life which, I think, was the whole point of the dream. However when I walked into work this morning, said coworker was standing outside smoking (just like he always is -- another annoying thing about him) and it took all the self control I had to not muster "jackass" when I passed him because I was Still! So! Mad! at the completely imaginary thing he did to me.

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I know that I said I was sick of all things Harry Potter after finishing the cram for the final week of my Witchcraft class, but then I saw this and now I'm sort of psyched again.

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I think it's time for Flickr Anonymous. I can't stop checking on there a zillion times a day, looking at other people's work and getting inspired. I also need to back away from the Photoshop brushes, of which I can't stop experimenting with. The result? Some good and some meh. Wait, no. The real result is that I'm getting no work done. Which is bad.

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Dill says Hi.

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I'm attending Beltane this weekend, and I'm on the hunt for a long, colorful, flowy skirt. Renee, kind of like the one you wore to Ten Commandments (not that this helps the rest of you). I've tried: Old Navy, Boscov's, Lane Bryant, and Deb. Zip, zilch. Any suggestions? I'd like to not pay a ton of money for this either, as I'm going to be dancing, sitting around in the grass and dirt, and other stuff in this.

Oh, and while we're on the subject of clothing, what do you all think of this dress as a possibility for a summer wedding? I want to be comfortable and cute, but I'm worried this is not dressy enough.

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Saturday, April 21, 2007
It's a Beautiful Day!
Last photo post, I swear. But:

Spring Time!

It is SPRING TIME now. (I hope. Mother Nature, keep taking your Ritalin, OK?)

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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Let's drive to Brighton on the Weekend
Oh, hey. How's it going? Yeah? That's cool. Any big news? Really. Interesting. Well, you know, good luck with that.

Oh me? Yeah, I'm OK. I know. No, I know. I'm just busy. Really. Like, you know, end of the semester/beginning of spring busy. The good kind of busy.

Well, a lot really. Like tonight in class? I have to give a presentation. So that was a fair bit of work, getting ready. And in tomorrow's class I'm up for critique again. And I'm trying to race through the entire Harry Potter canon again so I can develop discussion questions before next week, since I'm discussion leader. And let me tell you -- it's sort of hard developing Harry Potter discussion questions for graduate students that don't either sound incredibly stupid or sound like the answer's completely fucking obvious. Oh and I'm trying to get together my portfolio for my other class too, to say nothing of the 20-page term paper that I haven't even started for the literature class final. Yeah, really. Exhausting indeed.

Work? Eh, it's OK. I'm in the middle of a bear of an issue though, one with over 180 different models which means -- I swear I'm not lying to you about this -- 90 solid pages of charts. I sort of want to kill myself.

Remember how I told you the Doc is home? It's great news, it is, but he's managed to come home and I'm not even kidding you, within 24 hours of being home his house looks like I did nothing all fall. Teresa said it best when she said something like "the brilliant chaos of his brain naturally avalanching everywhere he goes." A lot of it is stuff he needs to unpack from spending 4+ months in New York. So I'm helping him with that. Oh! And he has a new idea for a book (like he needed another one) which hopefully we will actually get to do and I get to help him with it. But we first need to convince the subjects to let us do it. And that involves a lot of photographs and the building of an awesome power point presentation -- and guess who gets to do that? Yup, you're right. Not that I mind. It's a cool idea and I'm thrilled to be apart of it.

The weekends? Ha! Filling up quickly. Like this one coming up? I have both a wedding shower and a bachelorette party to attend on Saturday, plus a birthday party for my friend Justine. All on Saturday. Yeah. And then Sunday is Bloody Brilliant, my Britcom party (you're coming, right? You should totally come! You're SO invited!) which I haven't even started getting ready for. And "getting ready" involves cleaning and shopping and cooking and LORD, I can't even worry about any of that until Friday at the earliest. And you know, all my weekends are like that now. This happens every spring.

So yeah, with one thing and another, 90 pages of charts, Harry Potter, critiquing, photographing, rocking out to the new Bloc Party album (which I am loving), cleaning, and laughing at British people, I'm pooped.

Do you mind if I just..? Really? That's so nice of you. I promise, just a quick kip. No, you can go about doing what you were. Nah. I'll sleep through anything at this point. Yawn It's fine really just 15 minutes, really. Wake me before the ca....zzzzzzzzzzz

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Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Inappropriate Office Behavior
My office is undergoing some pretty extensive renovations right now and as a part of that we're getting some much needed new carpeting. For real, the carpeting in our office was so old and tattered -- there were rips and holes where the seams were, including a very obnoxious one that stretched from the center of my cube, across the aisle, into my neighbor's cube and all the way to the next row, causing people to trip as they walked to the windows and for our chair wheels to always be catching, leading to constant cursing and eventually the "repairing" of the carpet with duct tape. Classy. So needless to say, we're all pretty thrilled that we're getting new carpet, and pretty, colorful carpet at that.

The carpet installation is taking place at night when the office is closed and in sections so there's as little disruption as possible. Tonight is the night my section is being done, and in preparation we were asked to clean up any loose items from our desk/cubical areas, i.e. - Anything that's not your computer, phone, or in a drawer or cabinet needs to get boxed up and moved out of the way. In doing this, I discovered a couple of things: First, I have a lot of crap. Second, I have a lot of, uh, unorthodox items that reside in my cubical area. Check it out:

  • A Gonzo figure
  • A Kermit the Frog figure
  • A California Raisin figure
  • A foam stress toy in the shape of a penguin. I've named him Pavlo
  • A mini inflatable nun. I call her "Sister Mary Gettowork"
  • A fork twisted in the shape of a cricket
  • A tiny koosh toy fashioned to look like a hippo
  • Two slinky toys
  • An orange TMBG foam finger
  • A stuffed goose dog toy whose squeaker is broken
  • Two Fraggle Rock Happy Meal toys
  • Two Balsa Wood airplanes (a gift from a coworker who knew how much The Cartoonist and I enjoyed throwing paper airplanes when work got boring)
  • Frisbee
  • A "Chicken Chucker" toy gun
  • A neon yellow wig
  • A tube of hair gel that, in addition to providing excellent hold, also makes the user's hair bright orange
  • Purple face paint
  • A bubble blowing gun
  • Bubbles
  • A cow figurine with several rotating outfits, depending on the weather and her mood
  • Silly String
  • Various photographs of my coworkers in states of inebriation
  • An empty fish tank (I used to have fish, but they died. I'm getting new fish next week, I swear)


I think that maybe this might be why I haven't gotten a promotion yet.

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Sunday, March 11, 2007
Scenes from a Sunday
Tragic

The wind was blowing pretty hard -- enough to make us shiver and zip up our sweaters while we waited for the cabs to pull around. She was telling me about a coworker's baby shower and I was pretending to be interested, but really I was people watching behind her. A couple, the man's arm wrapped tightly around the girl's shoulders, shielding her from the wind. A gaggle of college students, decked out in green beads and hats, obviously headed for the parade. And the woman. She was old, if I were to guess, probably in her early seventies. I didn't pay her much mind until it happened.

It happened fast. So fast and only in my peripheral vision, that if she hadn't cried out, I might have thought I imagined it. She fell. She fell hard. One moment she was on the curb of the carport, the next she was lying face down in the middle of the street. Her cry was that of a little girl, a howl filled with shock, fear, and pain. For a moment, nobody moved. We stood frozen in horror, staring at her prone body. Then we went to her. She was crying. Blood pooled on the street below her face. I got to her first.

"Ma'am? Are you all right?"

"I hit my nose," she sobbed. Blood was still pouring in the street. She still hadn't moved.

"I know," I said, grasping her arm. Cars were coming. We needed to get her up. By this time, several other bystanders were around. We pulled her up. Blood poured down her face, running out of her nostrils, tributaries criss-crossing down the hand she was using to cover her face. She was shaken, tears still coming down her cheeks. Someone handed her some tissues, which she hurriedly stuffed against her nose. A woman I hadn't noticed before had whipped out her phone. "Do you want me to call an ambulance?"

"My nose," the woman cried, by way of response. More tissues. "Are you here by yourself?" the woman with the phone asked.

"No," said someone behind us. "She's my wife." Behind the group of us, was a man. He was shorter than she was, balding, calm. He walked up to her and tried to pull her away from us. "It's fine," he said. "She's my wife." The woman nodded her head, blood still rushing from her nose. Man, I felt like saying, where were you a minute ago? And why aren't you helping her now? He turned to her then, taking her arm and slowly leading her away, making reassuring waving motions at us. We stood confused. One of the college kids said loudly, "I told them inside what happened. They're sending a first aid person."

"Fine," the husband responded shortly, still pulling her away slowly. He seemed embarrassed by his clumsy wife, irritated at our concern. I sort of wanted to push him away from her, take her and hug her, clean her up and calm her down. Buy her a cup of coffee, get her settled. The first aid attendant appeared then, pushing a wheel chair. I was unnerved. In ten years, that could be my mom, I thought, the memory of her initial cry echoing in my ears. We left her then, in the hands of the first aid attendant and her husband.

Besides, our cabs had arrived.


Funny

I turned to my mom. "Not bad for a Sunday," I said. "Brunch, King Tut, Science Museum, Giant Heart, and now a Parade." We were watching the tail end of the St. Patrick's day parade as it curved around Logan's Square.

"All right!" was her enthusiastic response.

We watched as pixie little Irish dancers skipped by and string bands strummed Danny Boy. And then, an entire army of men in kilts and aran sweaters trooped by.

"Oh, I think I can die happy right now," I jokingly told my mom. She laughed and nudged me. Just then, he looked at me. He was dashing, all dark hair and broad shoulders, his eyes shielded by sunglasses. He wiggled his eyebrows, hoisted his leg up and coyly lifted the hem of his kilt up his thigh. I giggled and clapped. "WOOOO!" I screamed* like a drunk cheerleader. That was all the encouragement he needed. He lifted the kilt hem higher, higher, higher until there it was, full on display: His Wee Danny Dublin. Only it wasn't so, uh, wee. God has indeed blessed this Irishman, as it were. I didn't know what else to do, so I just continued clapping and laughing at him. He dropped his kilt back down and continued marching on.

I turned to my mother, thinking that she was going to be all shocked and horrified at this man's indecent exposure and my encouragement. Instead, she looked thoughtful. "You know," she said, "this is the end of the parade route. We could just follow them and see if..."

It was my turn to be shocked. "Mother! You're a happily married woman!"

"Well jeeze, I'm married, not dead Kate."


*Shut up, you. I've been single for too long, and besides, what would you have done? Exactly. You know you would have done it too.

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